Thomas-Hooker

Hey journal, being with my son has been very tough so far. He has been nothing but problems, we dont ever talk and he is always mad at me. He blames me for the reason his mother died, but it wasn't my fault. We dont know what happened to her, but I do know that I had nothing to do with her dying. I wish he could understand that, he never talks to me, and we're always arguing about everything. There is no respect anymore, he does what he wants when he wants. Even if I take disciplinary actions he doesn't listen he just goes on and does whatever he wants. We no longer can do anything all the problems we basically have aren't going to get solved anytime soon. No matter what i decide to do he will still act like this with me. I wish there was a way to show him that his mother died but it wasn't my fault. He doesn't want to understand that, I feel like I am under pressure to do something quick or else he will do something that can kill him. Especially with the revolution still going on its been months now, and there hasn't been any changes. Everyday I have to fear that something will happen to my son or me especially my son. What shall I do? No matter what I seem to do everything ends ub becoming worse. I have tried everything in my power to make things good, but now what? Well for now journal I will try my best to make things better, but if I can't then what shall I do? Thank you O so very much journal you have been a lot of help. Thank You and Bye!!

My name is Clark Hooker I am 17 and I live in Milford, Delaware. I am a widower, my wife passed a couple years ago and I have been broken hearted ever since. I have 1 child his name is Louis Hooker he has never really been able to recover from his mother dying. I don't plan on having a new wife anytime soon. So far we are in the American Revolution it has been nothing but hell here. All you hear is guns firing at any moment in time. You never know when a bullet can come through the house and kill one of us. I work as a fisherman out in the sea and I always have to be here worrying that something has happened to my child. My child is a very sensitive person any little thing can kill him at this moment. Everyday there are people dead this revolution is getting out of hand. At first I was with it but now I am not sure I am ok with it, just knowing that people keep dying every day is horrible, this isn't right but I am too afraid to speak out about it the people here are crazy. There are even kids that walk around with guns trying to kill people and some might not even know what they're fighting about. This revolution is not something I want to happen anymore, there might even be a chance that my son gets influenced and tries to start walking around with a musket. I do hope that everything goes alright and I hope that nothing happens to me or my son. Getting shot is not something my son can go through at the moment and I'm going to make sure that nothing happens to him at the same time. I will write tomorrow journal bye.